Dear blog,
I'm feeling so down at the moment. I just don't know what's wrong with me today - it's as if I had a self-reflection and actually am realizing all the strange transitions in my life which are affecting me emotionally. Am I really happy?
I'm only happy for that moment and then I start feeling like shit again once it's all over and I'm stuck alone. I don't need to surround myself with people to feel happy - no. I can be happy too, even when I'm alone. Or can I?
Today I just don't feel like talking to anyone. I feel too tired to reply to questions. I hate being told what to do. I just want to be away from everyone I know right now and stay at an isolated area. I need a new environment. Hence, I'm going to preoccupy myself by cleaning up the clutter in my life.
"Are you going to work today?" Dad asked. "Yes Dad, I am." Silly me for wanting to go to work on a Sunday. I don't really work that hard on the weekends, I'm just cleaning up and doing filing mostly. Besides, I feel peaceful at my own space. I feel suffocated and trapped at home where people want to talk to me. I'm sorry, but I just don't feel like talking. It's hard to explain this feeling. I'm guessing depression is hitting me again.
The saga continues.
